Some favorite quotes. The first two are from bash.org. Its a great site, check it out.

DragonflyBlade21: A woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn't work out, we'll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired.

IronChef Foicite: well, there's a lot of reasons
IronChef Foicite: i mean, roses only last like a couple weeks
IronChef Foicite: and that's if you leave them in water
IronChef Foicite: and they really only exist to be pretty
IronChef Foicite: so that's like saying
IronChef Foicite: "my love for you is transitory and based solely on your appearance"
IronChef Foicite: but a potato!
IronChef Foicite: potatos last for fucking ever, man
IronChef Foicite: in fact, not only will they not rot, they actually grow shit even if you just leave them in the sack
IronChef Foicite: that part alone makes it a good symbol
IronChef Foicite: but there's more!
IronChef Foicite: there are so many ways to enjoy a potato! you can even make a battery with it!
IronChef Foicite: and that's like saying "i have many ways in which I show my love for you"
IronChef Foicite: and potatos may be ugly, but they're still awesome
IronChef Foicite: so that's like saying "it doesn't matter at all what you look like, I'll still love you"

"If pigs could vote, the man with the slop bucket would be elected swineherd every time, no matter how much slaughtering he did on the side."
--Orson Scott Card

A very untypical sunday

Today, I went to bed, woke up, went to sleep, went to the Mojave Desert, worked my ass off as a production assistant, met and shook hands with the iron sheik twice, met corey feldman, ran a mile to get a radio battery to some guy, cooked chili, watched three southpark episodes, and made my baby bro smile a bunch of times.

Full day, no?

Time for Mister Obvious!

If you got up at 6:40am, and fell asleep at 9:30pm, and then slept until 8am, then you are sleep deprived (well, you were until you slept for eleven hours)! Especially if this was a Friday to Saturday experience.

Beerstein Gummies

Okay, let's start with the good stuff. Mr Beerstein, my sixth period bio teacher, has all these gummy bears, right? We did this experiment with em, and he ended with a shit-load of extras. So, every now and then he offers some to his T.A. who sits right next to me. And, most of the time, I usually ask for some. But he always says, "Sorry, she's me TA." But not today.

Today, she was reading a book, and he wanted her to do some TA stuff, but she wanted to read, so he asked me to do it. For some gummies. So, long story short, I did the thing, and got two gummies. They were in like superhero wrapping, and one of em was green and the other was yellow. I couldn't tell what the green one was, but I thot the yellow one was 'the thing,' so I opened and ate the green one, which I thot was the hulk, but it had these weird ears, so it couldnt be (it turned out to be wolverine). But, it tasted so good, that I opened the other one, but... IT WASNT 'THE THING!' IT TURNED OUT TO BE FRICKIN SPIDERMAN! A YELLOW SPIDERMAN?! WTF??

So, yeah. I treasure beerstein giving me the gummies, especially since I fall asleep in his class sometimes, but i really wished he had given me less tricky gummies. I felt it was very important to know what they were before I ate em, and I almost didn't find out. Lame, huh?

btw, i reread this, and i publish it only because i hate to delete stuff I write for a blog. It seemed much more interesting right after it happened. lol

Does this happen?

Okay, so there's this girl. I've been friends with her for years, and always thought she was kinda cute, but not like, girlfriend material. She went to my elementary, my middle school, and now we go to the same HS.

Usually, we only see each other between classes in the hallways, or maybe we pass each other at lunch. Every now and then however, we stop and have a chat. One such time, I had to ask her a question. So, I ask the question, she responds, and then it happens.

I leaned forward, TO KISS HER. I could not believe it. I shocked myself, and thankfully stopped myself too. Apparently halfway there, I figured out what I was doing, and stepped back. Her eyes met mine, and she knew I had just restrained myself. I dont think a disgusted look, or even a reproachful one was in her eyes, just, surprised, like me. Maybe a little curious (as to why i stopped and why i moved, i suppose).

Here's the thing, I did not consciously do that, I SWEAR. I don't know, or understand what happened. Btw, we're still friends and its not awkward, it's basically the same as before. Just, when I see her, I remember the time body took over mind, lol.

So, basically, I'm confused. I know I don't like her as more than a friend, but damn that was eerie! The only thing I can think of is that there is some underlying sexual tension between us, but I really don't get it. I have always been amazing at restraining myself from stuff like that. I've never even like, made physical movement towards a girl like that. Am I getting to the point where hormones dictate my actions? If so, that would suck.

Question: Has this happened to anyone else?

And the answer to the million dollar question is: No

Apparently, I was not fit for the part
A twinge of pain, and a splintered heart
Perhaps I'll be apt around the bend
But I have a feeling, that this is the end

I'm in hard times. But instead of growing worse, or growing better, I am not only in hard times, but also what seems like doldrums. In this sort of time, I usually go to someone, and ask for help.

I was recently talking to a close friend, and expressing my upset about a situation. She said I was being selfish, and that I should care about others. I was really offended, and didn't speak to her for a long time. Unfortunately, I have only recently realized how true she was.

After going to someone, and taking their advice, I would usually discard it. I wanted a quick fix, not that stuff about "time heals all wounds." My response to that has always been, "wounds leave scars."

The truth is, everyone is different. There is a large variety for methods of healing. For some people, a quick lay will do the trick. Some need another serious relationship. Other's need time. It's a great day when someone discovers what works for them. I can only hope that I have one in my near future.

After some reflection: Before 2008, I had never been rejected. So far this year, I have been rejected twice and had one really crappy relationship. Bad year, dude.

Another Beatle's test...

Blackbird
You have recently been given a newfound freedom. You are a very hopeful individual with a unique and creative mind. However you do not like being told what to do, and value your independence. You have a good deal of patience but may be a little insecure about yourself. However your independence will put you into new, challenging situations and you will find courage you did not know you had.

Well, that seems kind of accurate... I do think I'm creative, I like being told what to do, at an amusement park or something, but not when it comes to how to lead my life. I do value independence. I DEFINITELY have a good deal of patience, and i am more than a little insecure about myself. As for finding unknown courage, I don't know, cuz that's a prediction about the future! lol