Am I the ball or the racket?

Guess who won the second and third game of raquetball today? That would be...
My dad!

But to the point, guess who won the first game? That would be me. Oh yeah. I pwn. And I didn't get to 21, which is the winning score. I got to 23. Oh yeah. I pwn. Anyway, I guess I'm just really awesome.

I payed for my victory.

My back and knees are in extraordinary pain...excuse me while I go cry..

lol, jk

That path was stupid...

I don't want to leave my blog where I left off, even if nobody ever looked at it again. But whatever. The boulder was a rejection from a girl i asked out. I don't want dynamite. I understand the basis of the rejection, it's totally cool, and I get it. That path was stupid. I'm gonna avoid it. Maybe the current path will has a delta type thing coming up, or a fork, but it doesnt matter. My life isn't terrible right now, and I'm fairly content (though more writing time wouldn't be a problem [lol]). I don't think the blog feels finished, but if I kept writing I'd just be rambling on.

Goddamn it

Well, sometimes when you strike a new path there's something in the way. A boulder for instance. Lets say its a boulder. I dont have any dynamite. I can't remove this boulder. The only thing I can do is work backwards to the other path, and keep going on that one. Maybe I'll find some dynamite on this path. Or maybe someone will give me some dynamite. Who knows?

Yesterday

Wow. I have had these results for awhile. Since I got them I have listened to the song Yesterday several times. It has certainly become one of my favorite Beatles songs. These results hit me on the head...hard. I don't want them to be true, but my first instinct was WTF? How did they know?? Everyone I have asked said that it hits the nail on the head for me.

Yesterday
You have a tendency to focus on the past: past mistakes, past happiness, past love. Everything seems easier and simpler in retrospect. You are quite sentimental and you have a good heart. As your life progresses, a lot of things you once valued will become unimportant to you, and some of the things you did not care about before will become extremely valuable to you. Maturity will sharpen your perspective, but those happy, simple times of coloring and tag will always remain in your memory. And waiting just ahead of you are even more wonderful memories to be made.

It has an upbeat ending, I guess. But it really depresses me because I see so much truth in it. After getting it, I have tried hard to become the person different from the one who go these results.

Work as if you don't need the money.
Love as if you have never been hurt.
Dance as if no one is watching.

I have almost always followed the third one (and made an ass of myself every time). The second strikes a chord. I am always afraid, not just of love-ache, but other things (all emotional). I have decided to strike a new path. The other me can just go screw himself.

*added afterward*
I still want to be sentimental and good hearted, and there are some things that will never lose value.