Sunday, September 28, 2008

And the answer to the million dollar question is: No

Apparently, I was not fit for the part
A twinge of pain, and a splintered heart
Perhaps I'll be apt around the bend
But I have a feeling, that this is the end

I'm in hard times. But instead of growing worse, or growing better, I am not only in hard times, but also what seems like doldrums. In this sort of time, I usually go to someone, and ask for help.

I was recently talking to a close friend, and expressing my upset about a situation. She said I was being selfish, and that I should care about others. I was really offended, and didn't speak to her for a long time. Unfortunately, I have only recently realized how true she was.

After going to someone, and taking their advice, I would usually discard it. I wanted a quick fix, not that stuff about "time heals all wounds." My response to that has always been, "wounds leave scars."

The truth is, everyone is different. There is a large variety for methods of healing. For some people, a quick lay will do the trick. Some need another serious relationship. Other's need time. It's a great day when someone discovers what works for them. I can only hope that I have one in my near future.

After some reflection: Before 2008, I had never been rejected. So far this year, I have been rejected twice and had one really crappy relationship. Bad year, dude.