I am a writer. I write in many different ways. I have been writing poetry, scripts, books, short stories, essays, lyrics, and other stuff. I have several book ideas going on right now, and I have been thinking about some short stories, occasionally i come up with a new song, essays are rare, scripts are common, but i dont work on them often, and i love poetry, though like songs, new ones are at best occasional.
A friend recently asked me if writing was how I vented feelings. I kind of do. I vent my sad feelings by writing, and my happy ones. I have written two angry songs, and neither are pleasant. I didnt like writing them much, but it really helped.
Anger is vented mostly by being angry. When I am angry there are two ways I vent with music. One is to listen to happy Beatles songs (ie. A Hard Day's Night, Eight Days A Week, etc.), but when I am angry sometimes I listen to angry music (Rammstein), which accelerates the feelings, but it keeps me pleasant around company. Sometimes I get mean though. When I look back on experiences when I was mean, I really don't like them. Being mean when I am angry makes me very upset, probably more so than when I was angry, but in a sad way, not an angry way.
I had the most horrible realization the other day. Me and my bro were out buying laundry detergeant for my mom, and there was cleaning supplies on the other side. I saw "Easy-Bam off!" and I thought to myself, "Hey, when I'm older thats what I want in my bathroom." Then I realized what that meant. In five years, I will be in my freshman year of college, and living alone (or with a roommate). I will have to buy my cleaning supplies, and laundry detergeant. Then I saw the price for "Easy-Bam Off!" It was 6.49. This may sound cheap, but that seemed like a lot of money, especially when I will need another in a few weeks. 6.49 is nothing. But when you add sponges, paper towels, silverware, laundry detergeant, dish soap, shampoo, body soap, conditioner, tooth paste, tooth brushes, mouth rinse, tissue, toilet paper, windex, regular towels, and all the other stuff, most of which has to be replaced often, that is a lot of money. And I will have to shop for all that stuff too. And thats just keeping a house going. What about when I have kids?? Diapers, toys, diapers, clothes, diapers. Then more toys, ipod, phone, all this stuff. I have no concept of money. I have a job, make money, spend it. But in reality I pay for nothing. I will work and spend. Is that what my whole life will be?? Wow, this is depressing.
Talking about life. I feel young. I feel ignorant and like I lack too much knowledge. I also have no idea what to do with my life. I hate my indecision.But, what the hell. I'm 14. People who know exactly what they wanna do with their life for sure when they're 14 should open their mind to more. lol
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geeess... you think too much lol. its good that u can vent somehow...its better than keeping it bottled up and not being able to vent (which happens to me on occasion)When i do tho, ill usually listen to music too. As far as ur future...i know that people tell you that the future is sooner than you think, but for now i am just thinking out a basic idea of what i want for my life, and putting it in the back of my head. Truthfully i dont plan on seriously thinking about what kind of laundry detergent i want to use in my household, until i move out of the house im in now. Then when i guess i'm like a junior in high school, im not gonna SERIOUSLY think about my job and other stuff.
yeah.... i bet you now have a bit more appreciation for the grown-ups in your life. The ones who DO have to buy all that shiz on a weekly basis. And more. Cuz you didn't mention electric bills, gas bills, fuel for the car, groceries, pet food, I could go on and on and on. Appreciate your youth while you've got it, baby.
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